42622) My biggest regret is telling my bestfriends...
Psychiatrist suck. I had to go see mine and he called me a liar claiming that I never told him that I purge or that my mom also has an Ed. I always thought they were supposed to make you feel berthed but after that all I wanted to do was purge to prove to him that he isn’t helping what so fucking ever.
Scales: You're too heavy
Tape Measure: You take up to much space
Voices: You're too fat
Mirror: You're a monster
Me: I know...
deranged-delusion: After many days of starvation, your body doesn’t want to move. It drags itself places, sometimes it even floats. Your vision shakes and you walk into things. You’re as high as the clouds but your feet still remain on the ground.
There is no fucking winning with my parents. If I eat then its way too fucking much for a ‘normal’ person. But if I don’t eat then of course there must be something fucking wrong with me. It doesn’t matter if I eat or not because if I do I’m just going to fucking purge it.
fuck all of you
Everyone: Stop being selfish. Stop being an attention seeker. Just shut the fuck up, no one needs you. Go and kill yourself, everyone would be better off without you. I don't understand why you're still here! Go and slit your throat already! Oh you want to be skinnier? Then don't fucking eat! Oh my god you're nothing but bones, go eat something, go have mcdonalds. Nobody likes you. Bitch. Fake. Whiny thing. Go cry for your mommy, ahahahahah.
Me: *commits suicide*
Everyone: Oh my got this breaks my heart, she didn't deserve to feel this way. People should've told her she's beautiful when she was alive. Her cuts weren't for attention, she tried to find a way to deal with the pain she felt inside. May she rest in peace.
Fasting everyother day, 200 calories max on non fasting days
thin-andempty: the fucking calories i’ve consumed i feel sick to my stomach seriously can this day be over yet
109lbs. Fasting until Tuesday
Purging until you can’t see straight.
After 2 weeks of not Being to the psychiatrist and eating even less then I usually do, I can just imagine all the horrible things he’s going to say to me.
Know your limits, then ignore them.